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[14 Jul 2009|10:13pm] |
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I hate that I still miss you like hell.
I hate that I still hear your empty promises. I hate that I believed every single one of them.
I hate that you've taken so much away from me.
I hate that I put up with so much and forgave you time after time.
I hate that I didn't end it when I should have.
I hate that you've taken two and a half years away from me that I'll never get back.
I hate that the mere thought of you brings tears to my eyes.
I hate that you're so devoid of emotion.
I hate that I was too naive to see that you'll never love me as hard as I loved you.
I hate that you crushed my hopes and dreams for the future. They all included you.
I hate that I have to live my life without you in it.
I hate that I made you the centre of my universe.
Most of all...
I hate that I still love you more than anything in this world.
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| The One I Gave My Heart To - Aaliyah |
[05 Jun 2009|06:47pm] |
How could the one I gave my heart to,
Break my heart so bad?
How could the one that made me happy,
Make me feel so sad?
Won't somebody tell me
So I can understand
If you love me
How could you hurt this heart of mine?
Tell me
How could you be so cold to me?
When I gave you everything
All my love, all I had inside
How could you just walk out the door?
How could you not love me anymore?
I thought we had forever
I can't understand
How could the one I shared my dreams with,
Take my dream from me?
How could that love that brought so much pleasure,
Bring such misery?
Won't somebody tell me
Somebody tell me please
If you love me,
How could you do that to me?
Tell me
How could you just walk out the door?
How could you not love me anymore?
I thought we had forever
I can't understand
No I can't understand
How could the one I gave my heart to,
Break my heart so bad?
How could the one who made me happy,
Make me feel so sad?
Won't somebody tell me
So I can understand
If you love me,
How could you hurt me like that?
How could the one I gave my world to,
Throw my world away?
How could the one who said I love you,
Say the things you say?
How could the one I was so true to,
Just tell me lies?
How could the one I gave my heart to,
Make me feel so sad?
How could the one I gave my heart to,
Break my heart so bad?
Tell me
Tell me
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| The once-in-a-blue-moon update. |
[26 Jun 2008|01:37pm] |
I haven't bothered to update in ages, I know. Just nothing of interest to report.
Well...I saw The Buble twice!!
Cam and I went to see the June 7 show. It was awesome. I wouldn't expect anything less from him. And it was nice to share the experience with the boy. We stayed overnite at the Hilton on the Park. It was only one nite, but it was better than nothing. We'd been talking about doing something like that for quite some time, but never got round to it. We checked in around 3pm, watched TV...and stuff. Had dinner at a little restaurant next door to the hotel, then walked to Rod Laver. Was good to not worry about parking and stuff like that and avoid the congestion at the end of the nite when everyone just wants to get out.
I was thoroughly suprised when Cam said he enjoyed the show. He was not much of a fan, but he appreciates his music. Lol I think the show changed all that! He was so impressed that he told his mum about it and bought her tickets for his last show in Melbourne. He could only afford nosebleeds and asked if I wanted to go along. Lol of course I said Yes. Only thing was, there was a two ticket per person limit. So he told me to take his mum cos he prolly wouldn't appreciate it as much the second time round.
His mum LOVED it. She was just so starstruck, it was cute. Lol next time she wants front row seats. I'm really glad we get along so well.
Been playing way too much with my Nintendo DS. That's prolly part of the reason why I don't update as much. I'm more on Facebook these days anyways... :o)
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| Freezing!!! |
[27 Mar 2008|12:45pm] |
It's soooo cold! Amazing how the weather changes so quickly. 30 odd degrees one day, freezing temperatures the next. Well, that's Melbourne for ya. I do however, appreciate the rainfall. I get a free carwash! I don't think I can restrict my water consumption any more...it's crazy! I love the hot weather, I do.
As you can tell by the randomness of this post, I'm procrastinating.
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| Quickie! |
[17 Mar 2008|06:12pm] |
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Well...life is good.
So far...
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| WTF?! |
[11 Feb 2008|10:40pm] |
Brian McFadden is to support BSB on their tour?! Last I knew his first, last and only album tanked 2 years ago. What's he got to promote? Furthermore, what would he sing? Westlife songs?
12 more sleeps...
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| Arrgghhh!! |
[09 Feb 2008|10:23pm] |
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Is there any way to make two weeks come say...tomorrow?!
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| Namaste! |
[06 Feb 2008|10:56pm] |
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I have just had my third Yoga class and I feel awesome. Right now, I'm not sure how I can sleep when I've got all this energy inside me right now. I wanna dance and do more Yoga! I just feel so good. I've found my posture has improved, as with my flexibility and stamina with some poses. I can't believe I hadn't taken it up sooner. I have practiced Yoga with a video I bought years ago, but I soon began to tire of it, because it was the same stuff over and over again. That and the fact that I wasn't getting the most out of it because I'm pretty sure I was doing a lot of the poses wrong. Now that I've started classes, I have the guidance and the encouragement that I need. I tried digging up that video last week, but I must've given it away. I was hoping to use it in between classes (Beginner's is only once a week at this particular studio), so that I would see results a lot faster. But having said that, I'm more than happy to go at my own pace.
For an hour and a half I get to focus just on myself. No one else. That's the part I love. I can forget about my problems and by the end of the class, I can learn to deal with them. Since leaving the class this evening, I've felt like I can conquer the world!! Lol delusions of grandeur, perhaps. I just could not help but dance around when I got home.
Just two and a half weeks until Cam comes home. I do miss my Boy. The worst is when I go out and see couples together, cuddling and kissing, walking hand in hand. I get all gooey and wish he were back home with me. I don't look at these couples with disgust. Instead I feel insanely jealous! Not grossed out at the PDA's. If I was single, it'd be a different story!!
So not looking forward to getting up early tomorrow morning. I know it's gonna be so hard!
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| Great timing, Boys! |
[02 Dec 2007|04:58pm] |
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I don't know if I'll be able to see BSB in concert next Feb. Tickets come out December 11. That's one week after Buble's tix go on sale. I only get paid fortnitely as well, and next pay is two days later. So yeah, I could get tix, if they're still good and available, but then I wouldn't have much for Christmas presents and that's the last pay before Christmas. The day the Boys are performing here, is the same day Cam gets back from Africa. So naturally, I'd want to meet him at the airport and catch up with him. Granted, he said he'd dump me if I didn't go to their concert, but I prolly won't be able to afford it anyways. I guess it's not meant to be. Laura can't come with me this time because she's getting her wisdom teeth out the day before and Mushy's in Sydney. I don't want to go alone!!
Torn, much?
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| Crap. |
[08 Nov 2007|06:02pm] |
I wasn't intending to work straightaway after exams. I mean, I just want a couple days break, that's all I'm asking for. Just to catch up on sleep and DVD's I'd been meaning to watch.
The manager has handed in her resignation (she got a job elsewhere). Can't believe it, so close to Christmas. Now the fulltimer is leaving. Unfortunately, they've both recommended Yours Truly to be in charge.
Like I said, Crap.
I just...*sighs* I don't want the responsibility. Not to mention, having to train the newbies up. I've been the only one they've spent the most time with. It's not easy, training up the kids when it's soooo busy. Why do they do it so close to Christmas?
I never asked for this. And I really don't want to be responsible for this particular store. Hopefully they'll bring in some new, experienced replacements. I can't manage that place on my own, not with the current team.
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| Isn't it funny... |
[06 Nov 2007|10:52pm] |
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...how in a split second, one's mood can so easily change and the insecurities start to creep in again?
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| Urgh! |
[30 Oct 2007|01:02am] |
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I have the worst hayfever ever! Spring sucks. But not really because it precedes Summer, so I shouldn't complain, really.
In other news...I'm now up to date with Secret Diary of a Call Girl. Woohoo!!
PS I'm much better, now. The sun is shining. :o)
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| P is a GOD! |
[21 Oct 2007|10:12pm] |
Carole King, yo! Carole King! One of my most favourite, all-time, singer/songwriters. Now this is why he is such.a.god. Yup. *nods*
Now...if only it came to fruition...
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| Facebook is evil! |
[08 Oct 2007|05:38pm] |
I've so neglected LJ since I've discovered Facebook. It's sooo bad. It's getting boring now anyways. Too many old school friends asking me what I've been doing with my life. Sick of answering the question, mainly because my life hasn't been that exciting. I haven't traveled much, I don't have a kickass job (yet), I'm not married/engaged/pregnant and I'm still studying.
Not much is happening anyways. Uni is going alright. It's hard getting those essays out. Work is ok. Our new store is looking awesome, but the bogans remain the same. I've yet to meet a sober bogan @ Dandy.
Can't wait till the end of exams...
JT on the 5th of November!! Can't wait!!
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| It's official... |
[13 Sep 2007|06:08pm] |
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I'm now addicted to Facebook.
This has to stop.
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[14 Aug 2007|05:54pm] |
Spent the weekend in Sydney with the Boy and friends. Didn't have as much fun as expected, partly due to the fact that I had a cold and was throwing up the nite before we left and during the morning after arrival. And no, I'm not pregnant, despite what friends, family and the pharmacist think.
Made me appreciate Melbourne a lot more!! Some of the clubs we went to were shit and finished up at 2am. The boys ended up at yet another gay club. *sighs* and returned the next day at 10am.
I ♥ Melbourne. :o)
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[25 Jul 2007|12:37am] |
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I feel like such a loser in comparison to the kids I graduated high school with...
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| Woohoo!!! |
[23 Jul 2007|05:58pm] |
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I made a friend today!!!
Yay!!!!
Seriously, peeps. This is HUGE! *grins*
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